Sippin’ my coffee and…

I decided it’s been  a few weeks since I’ve been here on my blog.

I feel as if I’m in a different place since I last updated. I have been fucking busy with shit going on right now. I mean, not shit, but mundane shenanigans. I have started taking some classes to further my career. That alone is a fucking struggle. I can never find enough time in the day to do homework or study. School is a pain in the ass, I hate it, but it offered me a better future. Bastard.

I have also started training for a few runs that I want to do. We (some friends and I) are doing the Mud Run in DFW and a Beach to Bay Marathon in Corpus Christi, Tx. We’ll see how shit turns out. I have to find time to run at least two miles.
Plus, I’m working full-time too. I work 12hr shifts, run, go to school, study, homework, and my other responsibilities that take top priority.
It’s MY choice, so I’m just going to shut the fuck up and do it.

I miss my friends! I miss the fuck out of you! Ohh and let’s not forget, I’m planning my birthday bash for Feb 12th! Wow, I’m all over the damn place.

Okay, well I have to get going. I’m taking my Ryan to a doc appointment today. Maybe next time I’ll update some more good than complaining.

-Scrubs

Quote of the day: ”Ever notice people who see shit are always crazy?” -Marcus in Bringing Out The Dead

What you’ve missed…

Absolutely NOTHING.

Okay, so the doc has raised all restrictions on exercise – YAY! I can now get back into running. Needless to say, the day he raised restrictions I started running. “Get back into training. Slowly of course. As soon as possible.” I am just doing what the doctor ordered and started running. Yes, slowly, but I’m doing it. I feel fucking great!

Yesterday I started coming down with some sort of bug/cold/flu/ whatever. Fuck you sickness! I’m holding up pretty well. I took some dayquil and now I’m about to start exercising. I remembered I had a blog, so I decided to come update this before starting my day. I miss typing my stupidity down and posting it – only to, months later, look back and roll my eyes at my own writing.

I’m also taking more pictures. I have been finding my pleasures in taking more pictures. I love it. I’m finding myself again. Thank you Lord.

Okay, off to run.

-Scrubs

Scrub thought of the day: “Do, or do not; there is no try” -Yoda

What I want…

What I really want is to have energy. The older we get the less energy we have. I am begging for a nap by 1430! WTF? People say, “Well, when you exercise you have so much more energy.” BLAH! Whatever! LIAR! Not me, I am even more tired!

So I am really into the holiday season this year. I cannot wait to decorate the house. I have been looking for a pretty wreath for the front door. Nothing has caught my eye yet. We’ll see.

Oh and another thing – I want to cut my hair. I want to cut it so bad! Not too sure how, but what I do know is that it’s way too damn long. We’ll see what I decide.

Not much else to say.

-Scrubs

Scrub thought of the day: It’s easy to want, but not so easy to get.

I MUST get up…

I have to clean the house, do laundry, and pay bills. Instead I’ve been online all morning. I deserve to do so, I keep telling myself. I have worked all weekend and I work the rest of this week. What’s one day off? One day off of being a complete dud and not being productive at all. Ugh… it makes me sick just thinking of not being productive. I’ll get up in a minute.

I need to be inspired. I need to find love in the things I love to do. I need to be ME again. I blame it on the weather!

Okay, well off to finally attempt to do what I need to do.

-Scrubs

Scrub thought of the day: I have time on MY side.

Up again…

So I feel like I have failed miserably on continuing my exercising. Shortly after I started running my hip started to bother me. I responsibly went to the doctor. He said I have bursitis. Of course! Why the fuck not? No running or excessive walking for the next 3 weeks, he says. Well, fuck, I say. Either way, I’ve been resting my hip and whatever. Imagine my air quotes in that sentence.

I also have not picked up my camera since then. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me, but I have been feeling very uninterested in many things lately. It’s so frustrating. I feel like punching someone.

Well, on another note, my 3 weeks are over. I started exercising again today. Of course, I started off slowly, but eventually we’ll get there again.

That’s pretty much the big update I have on my end. Yeah, everyone’s healthy and happy.

-Scrubs in skinny jeans (but not so skinny)

Scrub thought of the day: When you really allow yourself to be happy – what used to make you miserable isn’t worth it.

Playing…

Went to a park and I took a picture of this pretty little flower.

So Mr. ACU’s made me a beautiful little watermark for my pictures. I, however, am still learning how to work my awesome picture editor thingy, so I’m not up to speed on it yet. It’s funny because I can sit at the computer ALL day and look at pictures, edit pictures, and play with the picture edit thingy. There’s so much to learn on it. I do NOT photoshop my pictures… I just enhance the color and borders. I have yet to photoshop stuff in or out. I’m not that fast and awesome yet. Kids half my age know how to do that shit. Not me. I’m a slow learner, okay. Don’t judge me.

Well, I leave you with this picture I took at the park this past weekend. I’m still trying to go through all of them to post them.

-Scrubs in yoga pants

Scrub thought of the day: Why are some people so egotistical when no one really cares?

I did it!

…. AND I’m still doing it. What? You might ask? I’m waking up at 4am to go work out. That’s right people! I finally had the dedication to do it. I feel fucking GREAT when I work out before work. Now, keep in mind that working out BEFORE work warms me up FOR work. I ran my ass off at the gym, then I walk all day at work. Lovely. Double work out. When I come home I’m not dying like I used to. My legs, feet and lower back were killing me when I got off of work. Now, I’m fine. It does make a huge difference.

If you’re on your feet all day and ache when you go home… I recommend working out before work. I just feel fantastic! AND to my surprise, there are so many people that have that bright idea! It’s packed at 0430 in the morning! Nice.

Today, however, is my day off. I am drinking coffee and getting ready to hit the gym. After the gym I’m going to my work (not for work) to see my good friend Ryan, who had a hip replacement today. Have a fantastic day kiddos!

-Scrubs in shorts

Scrubs thought of the day: How nice life would be if laziness wasn’t the cause for most unaccomplished goals.

Time passes, People grow…

Since, Mr. ACU’s started deploying, I have been a journal keeper. I have always been a journal keeper, but more so since I have been “alone” so to speak. When I found out I was pregnant, I kept a journal throughout my entire pregnancy. I mostly keep one for every “obstacle” in my life. Every deployment was a different journal. Well, this last deployment I went through I kept a “Thoughts and Quotes” journal. I was reading through it earlier and came across this thought I had written down. It was an upset one and I don’t really remember who it was towards. I don’t even really remember why I wrote it. I can only tell I was upset.

It’s weird how things change at different situations. How at that point in time I was so upset, and now in my life today, I don’t remember at what or whom. When I read my old entires in my old blogs I remember the feeling I felt that day. However, today I no longer feel that way. I move past days and times, and old feelings. I grow. I change. I learn. I live.

It’s great to look back on things and see how much we have ALL changed. If not, then what’s the point of even living?

-Scrubs in jean shorts.

Scrubs quote of the day: Now that it’s all over, what did you really do yesterday that’s worth mentioning. -Coleman Cox

Worth

Today I had a little bit of a reality check. I wondered off into cyber space and ran into an Army Wife’s Facebook profile who lost her husband at war. I saw her posts of missing him and loving him and mourning. I felt for her. I felt sadness. I hate to feel that sadness and emptiness in my heart. Quite frankly, it scares the living shits out of me. I don’t ever want to feel that feeling. It’s terrifying.

Maybe I felt this way because it hit a little close to home. Mr. ACU’s knew him, personally. I knew of him, and knew of his wife, but did not really know them personally. Knowing of her, and of her child makes me even more sad. Their little girl is precious and I wonder if she will know who her dad really was. If the words they express to her about her father will make as close to justice as it really was. Her father, the hero, as she will see it.

This helps me realize that all the stupid shit I come across, is nothing compared to what War Widows are going through. My complaints about my boss, work, and gym are small and meaningless compared to theirs. It helps me appreciate what I have. It helps my day be a little more worthy.

I’m off to spread some love.

Scrubs thought of the day: I wont take any given day for granted.

-Scrubs in yoga pants.

In an uppity mood…

We are in the middle of decorating our house! It’s exciting when you’re looking through all these ideas and trying to do it inexpensively. We bought our house 7 months ago, and we’re just now trying to look into decorating. We painted before we moved in, so that part is out of the way (for now). I just don’t know whether I want to keep my garage as an actual car garage, or if I want it as an extra room. I don’t know!

I leave you with a picture of dawn. It’s the view from the window of my room upstairs.

Scrub thought of the day:
One picture, one frame, one addition to the wall can make a room look entirely different.

-Scrubs in pj’s.